Last month has been enormously taxing on my mind and body. I have been filled with enormous rage, anger, lack of faith and hostility towards myself and others. I’m incredibly angry with my Guru and myself. I abandoned my diet and ate a lot of junk food after staying at home for an entire day. The same day, I was in the market and thought of doing a kind act. The reason was not to get good karma, to feel peace or anything else. But to prove to myself and to someone, I love the most (more than my own life) that emotions and any other challenges can never destroy the innate good in me.
I bought an expensive sundae to remind myself that the money I have is to help others. And that I shouldn’t discriminate between spending on myself and any other person who needs it.
I gave it to a woman who had a baby sleeping in her lap at a place near the Hanuman temple. I didn’t wait to see her reaction and just left the area without seeing them. But, after walking for a bit, curiosity made me look back. Suddenly, a child came running to her with enormous happiness. And he was so happy that it felt like he almost pounced on her. They must’ve had a good time, I guess 🙂