This is the first time in my life I have lived on my own. There are times when I feel really lonely, sad and sometimes just lazy to cook food for myself, so there are times when I even sleep without eating dinner.
In such times, I found a family member in my roommate. I’m saying family as we were both concerned about each other as brothers and sometimes like mothers?.
As time passed, I being an emotional person, got very attached to my friend. On the other hand, he started feeling more like he wanted to get rid off me. The more he started acting like a stranger, the more I was hurt. I kept trying to hold our friendship together, even after many fights.
Well, I’m an introvert, so I don’t make many friends, and I value the few friends I have. All this scenario was just giving me pain. One day when I felt like it was getting too much, I sat in a dark corner of my room and asked the universe to take away my pain. To my surprise initially, I got this random thought in my head that I should watch some videos to get over it. And that’s how I found a video of a spiritual guru who told that expectation is not bad, but to feel hurt when they are not fulfilled is bad. Also, he said we should not give others power over us and our emotions.
Now I have decided that this situation cannot hurt me. If my friend doesn’t want to talk to me, it’s fine! I can keep all the good memories we had, it’s his choice to keep all the bitter memories. I’ll think of him as a friend always.