I just completed the book ‘The Big Questions of Life’ by Om Swami. I am privileged that I got a chance to read this book. I am overwhelmed and bowled over in mind and thought. The evening of 28th Oct 2017 was the first time that this question arose: why am I unhappy? The quest for happiness and unhappiness started from that day, and I think I got some idea about it. Overtime when I tried to delve deeper to find the true reason for my unhappiness, I realised it was created by my ignorant and foolish mind. It was 100% created by me. And that made me more unhappy. Why am I so stupid that I acted, reacted so selfishly in my life? My unhappiness is affecting every aspect of my life. It impacted everything, and in the process, I have lost everything.
When I look back, I see, I had a beautiful garden, that is now totally rundown. Due to my nonsensical actions and reactions, I have allowed it to become like this. It added more to my unhappiness. Life appeared totally burdensome once the pandemic spread. In such situations, this book taught me a simple lesson; I am not mindful, have never been mindful, never living in the now and not ready to flow with life. Simple learnings. The nature of impermanence is so simple to understand. And it is true. The simple, heartfelt letter from Mrs Vandana, as written in the book, was so insightful. It was the unconditional surrender at the feet of the Guru. Only a simple mind can elevate itself. I realised that I was moving away from the Light, getting frightened, seeing my long shadow. Thank you for showing me the path to move towards the Light. I know the rest will follow.