Last year, I had a severe mental breakdown, resulting in me doing very poorly at my exams. I had appeared 3 out of 8 papers, out of which 1st one I passed, the second and third were blank answer sheets. The day I left the second paper blank, I had cursed myself to death, for not writing an answer anybody could have written. Same happened in the next paper, but even worse. I felt so worthless; I wanted to kill myself. I didn’t attempt the rest of them. I’d known to be kind to others, but I failed to do the same for myself. Therapy helped me out of the mess I was in, and I learnt it was okay not to be okay, sometimes. You can’t always be at your best, and it’s only human to fail. I’m repeating the year, and I have no regrets.
Kindness should also be directed inwards, not just outwards.
~ Black Lotus User