Today, I will pen down one of the highlights of my life. I am an introvert and don’t respond well to social settings. As a result, I have never experienced the companionship and close friendships that people normally do. Whenever anyone starts getting too close to me, I get overwhelmed, which usually brings me back to square one.
Now this person, let’s call her my Special Friend, adjusted to my nature very easily despite my concerns and worries. She loves and accepts my uniqueness and tells me that friends like me are rare, and not everyone has the good fortune to cherish it. Over the years, she has made me fall in love with myself.
A while after we met, she was overwhelmed by tragedies: Cancer claimed her mother, a heart attack claimed her father, and lately, she lost her only guardian to Covid-19. I have never experienced that much pain and cannot comprehend the depth of her agony. Her world changed drastically in just two years. It was a lot to take in for me too.
I decided to stay and help her go through the trauma. I have become a sort of guardian to her. I am more expressive of my love for her and try to give her the things she has missed out on. I reassure her that she isn’t alone in this and will find me beside her every time things go south. Although it isn’t my battle to fight, I choose to stick around. She has told me to get on with my life and live my life without worrying about her.
Sometimes I am proud of my choices, and other times I am not so sure. Something within tells me to hang on and make a difference in the life of at least one person. It’s a choice that keeps me sane.
Kindness is pulling someone up after they are knocked down.
~ Black Lotus User