I was having a beautiful day recently and felt deeply connected with life, as I watched street dogs happily munching on the biscuits I got them. All was well, until a weird feeling gripped my heart. I turned around to find a man kicking away the all the biscuits behind me and terrorising the dogs with clenched fists and menacing sounds.
I was pissed. I asked him what the hell he was doing. He feigned innocence and then looked at me with a cold steely gaze that sent a shiver down my spine. Sensing danger, I realised that he had been following me. I whispered God’s name & took to my heels.
I reached home, adrenaline coursing through my blood. I felt numb. I felt weak and angry at having to run. It was a rude shock as I crash landed onto the other side of reality. I recovered when I heard Swamiji’s powerful voice in my head, His simple instruction – ‘bhaye se nahi ’, live fearlessly. It breathed life back into me.
I almost didn’t want to go out the next day to feed anyone, but that meant choosing to let fear get the better of me. ‘Well not this time’, I thought (I wasn’t going to be a fool, so I slipped in a pepper spray in my bag too). I returned home feeling grateful & alive.
And that’s the point I’m trying to make humbly that when you step out into the world to make a positive change, big or small, at times, you will be met by resistance, criticism, bitterness or insanity, as darkness crosses paths with your light in the external world and in your internal world, the insecure inner critic, the self doubter and the controlling judge. Let nothing stop you from finding that courage within that enables kindness to find its highest expression through you.
Stay safe, listen to your gut. Live fearlessly and freely. Let nothing or nobody dim your inner spark.